Rocking The Bontot

PTPTN da masuk tadi. after bagai nak rak call sana sini apa masalah, at last.
things to have list:

1. Sony earphones
2. nike sport shoes
3. top
4. ray ban glasses
5. forever 21 bangles
6. Roxy bikini suit (lalala)
7. new wedges (cause the old one kena sapu dgn sape tah-geram betol)

tapi, mama took some and simpan. tak aci. i got berapa je untuk belanja bulan ni. looks like, no shopping lah. ingat boleh la beli something for myself. tak pe, tak pe.

My new obsession. tak tau lah lama mana tahan ni. sama jugak masa nak beli PSP dulu. bila tak ada, nak gila-gila. bila ada, bukan nya main pun. buat dengar lagu je. baik beli mp3.(jangan beli mp4, cepat rosak). but, i did my research, its suitable for beginner, saving up, rm2k plus, plus for it. mama, i need extra house work!

i was just walking from Islamic Aqidah's class. it was raining but, its okay, sejuk sikit. then tokwan called, telling nenek is not quite well, she's in the hospital. but, dont worry she's fine. so, i was like, oh okay, nanti kaknik pegi.
later, after few secs, ciktan call.

ciktan: kaknik tau nenek masuk hospital?
kaknik: tau. tokwan call tadi cakap.
ciktan: oh, nenek has been in the hospital for three days.
kaknik: oh, i didnt knw.
ciktan: just so u know, nenek's health is bad. her heart could not pump
well.she's in quite serious condition.
kaknik: .........
ciktan:kaknik, are u listening
kaknik: ya, im here.
ciktan:sorry if my call upset u. i know u would react this way but i just want u to know nenek's condition. dont worry, she'll be fine. just pray hard, and tawakal.
kaknik: i will.
ciktan: ok, anything u call me. take care.
kaknik: ok. u too.

i hang up, i cried in the rain. (tak percaya tanya jehan)
moral of the story, i love my nenek, even selalu bertekak.
so, appriciate selagi boleh, jangan sampai dah tak ada baru nak sedih.

OMG. I dont know that if god really wants to test me, im done with it. i cant take it anymore. idk, whats the problem, but there must be something wrong with my ptptn, all the time. tak cukup ini la, itu la. kalau bukan sebab i nak belanja lebih sikit for my trip, tak hingin nak berkejar kemari, print itu ini. plus, i still have tons of assginments to be completed. da la Islamic Aqidah, kena buat balik. ya tuhan, berikan aku kekuatan, sesungguhnya aku hamba lemah dan hina. tak tertanggung dengan beban yang kau beri.